Hello. Here I am again. It's been awhile since my last post. I've been meaning to write but I am what you call a "Procrastinator". I always have the intention of doing things ahead of time. But for some reason, I intentionally find less relevant things to do until I end up cramming on the more important stuff.

That's actually one of the symptoms of ADHD -- procrastinating. It's been my problem since God knows when. I don't know why I do it. Maybe subconsciously I know that I work best under pressure. But the thing is I don't want to keep working under pressure. I want to be able to finish my tasks and have time to relax and do fun and non-stressful things.

Last time I said I was going to update my readers on my listening experience with the brain entrainment MP3's that can be found on www.studiomind.biz. But I haven't done any listening lately. Maybe that's my problem. After this post I will listen to my 10-minute relaxation MP3 that I got for FREE from the website studiomind.biz. I need to relax!!!

Are there are any fellow procrastinators out there? Some suggestions on how I can overcome this "bad habit" are more than welcome. When I do my work, I do them well. Cramming rarely affects the quality of my work. But I just don't want to always have this feeling of stress and pressure. I want to do things at a normal and relaxed pace. I don't get to watch DVD’s or read books anymore. I am always finishing something that I should have finished a long time ago.

Oh...and it's a good thing I remembered just now. I also have this thing where I come up with great ideas like a topic for a book that I can write, or a personal project, or even business ideas. Then I get all excited and enthusiastic about my idea and I start working on it. And somewhere along the way I just stop. I hate that! It's been awhile since I last finished something that came from sudden genius.

I'm thinking of J.K Rowling. If I have it right, she was a single mother who had some time on her hands. So she would go to a cafe with her baby and just start writing. And now Harry Potter is a household name. It's a cult phenomenon! And Ms. Rowling is filthy rich! All because she had an idea and she stuck with it.

I think in most everything we do, the most difficult part is the beginning. The challenge is actually starting something. If anyone out there has any experience similar to mine, or someone who came up with something great and just went on and did it, I would love to hear your story. I think my biggest challenge now is to be inspired. I need to be inspired!

And so... I leave you with this quote by Nathaniel Summers

"Once inspired one seeks to inspire. In this it is obvious that inspiration is rather infectious and we are little more than vectors through which it spreads."

I remember hearing the term “Alcoholism” or “Alcoholic” when I was a teenager. Back then it didn’t sound serious to me. It was more of a title for someone who had a social life. It sounded cool in a way. Young people like me back then used the terms alcoholic and alcoholism lightly; even jokingly. And there was some sort of glamour behind those words.

The society I grew up in tolerated drinking. It was actually, in a way, encouraged. Parties were not complete without beer or any alcoholic beverage. Restaurants and clubs were frequented because of the drinks, and not the food. I was one of those heavy drinkers who thought that life back then was all about having fun with friends. And fun with friends is only possible with alcohol. But I was never an alcoholic.

I heard some people commenting, in a joking and even a sophomoric attempt at complimenting me, that I was an alcoholic. Why? Because I drank almost every night, my tolerance for alcohol was very high, I could drink by myself and find it enjoyable or relaxing, and I was often with drinking buddies or parties that involved heavy drinking. Did I describe alcoholism? The answer is no.

Maybe it sounds like an alcoholic’s lifestyle, but it is not. I rarely got drunk, and if I did it was because I intended to get drunk or I drank something I knew I didn’t like and would eventually make me vomit before the end of the night. I didn’t look for alcohol and didn’t feel like I needed it. I didn’t turn into a monster after a few drinks, I was still me. Just a little fuzzy in the head, and sometimes a little more jolly than usual, or sometimes tired and seem gloomy.

I was more careful on the road after a few drinks (because I knew that I had been drinking and was well aware of the fact that I am in the position where I must be a thousand times more careful). I knew it was irresponsible to drink and drive and often found myself as the designated driver. I knew when it was time to stop drinking for the night, and there were many times when I could control myself and not join in the fun and stay sober for the night, because I would have to drive my friends home.

I have seen myself face to face with alcoholism countless times. But only when I was older and (allow me to indulge myself) wiser did I realize that I was surrounded by (potential) alcoholics. After learning more and more about alcoholism, I diagnosed a significant number of my acquaintances, friends (and some loved ones) as alcoholics. I was sometimes the party pooper and would ask my alcoholic friend(s) to tone down a bit on the drinking, or to call it a night.

I wasn’t afraid to tell them off when I felt that their behavior was starting, or has started to get out of hand. I felt that they were my friends, and I took the role of a ‘real friend’ seriously, and it was my responsibility to make sure that my friends would be safe while we were out, and get home in one piece. What they do when I’m not around is way beyond my control but I do make sure that I express myself, my observations of their behavior with alcohol, and my concerns. Whatever they decide to do about my friendly advices is completely up to them. I can only hope that I was able to make a positive impression.

I can’t be so smug as to say that I was doing a good deed all the time, and that I was the perfect friend. Even though I expressed my concerns and went out of my way to help out in ways that I thought were right, I was still a bad friend by example. Only because my actions would sometimes speak too loudly that it would muffle out my words completely. What is the point of saying stop drinking if I would, many times, tolerate their drinking? Those were very selfish moments of my life, when I would give in to their invitations to have a fun night out.

But now, I can say that I can be a good example, in words and in my actions. I don’t drink anymore. That is not a conscious decision but rather something that just happened naturally. I just don’t feel like drinking. And I don’t find myself missing those nights of bingeing on alcohol, or craving for a few bottles of beer or my favorite cocktails. In fact, I sometimes miss the taste of my favorite alcoholic beverages but the thought of hangovers and tired, sleepy nights turns me off. So I crave for something else, like iced tea or pizza.

It’s easier for me to say that it is that simple to stay away from alcohol. That is because I am not an alcoholic. I have seen it happen many times with loved ones and important people in my life, the struggle to stay away and the heartbreak and feeling of helplessness and hopelessness when they succumb to their addiction. It’s not easy to keep away from alcohol, nobody said it was, but it is most certainly possible. All you need is the determination to quit drinking, good and important reasons to want to quit, and the unconditional love, patience, and support of someone (or people) who care about you enough to help you through it.

In my opinion though (and based on observation from first-hand exposure to alcoholism), it is best to get to the root of the problem. The root of the problem in this case is the reason(s) for why your alcoholic friend or loved one is drinking. Or when and why did he or she start drinking in the first place? A lot of times it is because of personal problems that just became too much. And the easiest escape is by getting drunk and just forgetting about everything. Solve that and it becomes a whole lot easier to treat alcoholism. There is also the genetic factor, but it still boils down to what triggered the drinking.

I mentioned in my first blog entry that I found a website called www.studiomind.biz where they sell brain entrainment products. They have all sorts of products that can help you treat certain health issues such as alcoholism, depression, anxiety, just to name a few. I tried out their free 10-minute relaxation MP3 and I was more than surprised to realize that it really does work. I believed that it would work but not as much as it did, and I keep going back to listening to that MP3 so I can help my self slow down and relax to get rid of stress build-up. I am planning to buy and download most of their products that I feel would be helpful for me and my loved ones. And then I wish to write about them and tell you how each MP3 download have helped me or a friend of mine. I wish to be able to help others who have problems similar to what I write about. I am also an insomniac and I am planning to download the brain entrainment MP3 for insomnia.

The MP3 for alcoholism is called “on the wagon”. It’s actually very cheap. If I can afford it I’m sure most anyone can! I saw some brain entrainment products on the internet that cost too much. I wanted so much to try them out but I felt it was too risky to spend so much on something that I have never tried before. What if it doesn’t work? I can’t afford to waste money at this point in my life. I only tried out their relaxation MP3 because it was free. And I thought that was very nice and considerate of them to give us a free sample. It also says a lot about their confidence with their products. So until next time I will be back with my next blog to update my readers on my insomnia brain entrainment experience.

I have always wondered about ADHD and if it had any difference, in terms of symptoms and effects on the lives of people, with regards to gender. So I did some research, just surfing the internet and I came across an article on this. The article is called "Girls with ADHD". I found it on this website: www.studioMind.biz. It's a pretty cool website selling products for brain enhancement. Ever heard of that? Yep! It's my first time. Anyway, I downloaded their free MP3.... a 10-minute brain relaxation audio file. I was surprised to find myself feeling so relaxed.

Back to "Girls with ADHD", I read that girls are different with boys when it comes to having ADHD. I kind of assumed that since we are different in so many ways. But the thing is, with ADHD, I think it is important to take note of the differences. I also read that Girls with ADHD tend to have children with ADHD. I have 3 kids, and I am one hundred percent positive that my eldest child, a 6 year old boy, is an ADHD child. So it got me thinking? Do I have ADHD? Having studied Psychology, I feel silly for having missed my own symptoms. YES! It makes perfect sense. I have ADHD too!

I was always poor in concentration, I speak too fast because I am always trying to catch up with my train of thoughts, and I was just different with a lot of girls my age (when I was in high school). I had a lot of friends, but I was an ambivert; still am. I can be very introverted…most parts of my personality lean toward introversion. But I find myself acting out that I am often thought of extroverted. I can say that I have a higher than average IQ…tests showed that. And I know my capabilities, my skills, and my potentials. But for some reason, I was an underachiever.

I knew I could do more but I always did less. I am a multi-tasker, always hyper, and almost never sleep. I feel like I am wasting time by sleeping. I want to do so many things but I almost never finish anything I start. Now that I am older, married with 3 beautiful children, I find myself struggling to be a good, responsible parent. Budgeting is not easy foe me, compared to women my age. And time-planning is almost impossible for me. So there, I diagnosed myself with ADHD.

I’m glad I found the www.studioMind.biz website. They have so many great products that can help people suffering from ADHD, alcoholism, insomnia, depression, just to name a few. I think it is best to go all natural. What can be more natural than using relaxation to help you focus and get on the right track. I listened to the 10-minute free MP3 download that they have. It’s meant for a 10 minute break. So instead of lighting a cigarette, or getting your hourly dose of caffeine to help you relax, you can just sit back (if you are in your office), or lie down if you are at home (just make yourself comfortable), and let your mind have that much needed rest. I really believe that if I listen to this MP3 daily, or regularly, it will bring positive changes. I have yet to check out their products, but I am already expecting amazing results. Dear readers, I urge you to visit the website. Especially for those like me who might have problems with concentration, and sleeping disorders, and other things that might be blocking your path to achievements and success. We can share our experiences with one another.